Weird work is hard.
Internally, SiftFu has been undergoing several rounds of failed builds. Each time that I believed I had the technical issues pretty much under control, something would just not work.
My intention here is merely to clarify a situation that would otherwise be open to a whole host of misinterpretations. SiftFu was never an abandoned piece of software – the long period of radio silence was a reflection of total uncertainty as to where or when it would be acceptable to claim release quality, and a desire to avoid the mistakes of Fall 2012, during which several unacceptably bad (minimum way-below-viable not-really-product) releases served purely to damage morale. This is not a case of seeking perfection either – the app has legitimately failed so far to reach basic, privacy-safe usability.
I have learned a great deal from this experience, and it’s not over. I have roughly until summer to produce a working app. At that point the next plan kicks in. I am returning to the study of physics. I plan to document more thoroughly the myriad lessons I’ve learned from New York to Edinburgh to Santiago and back. That said, this post deserves at least a short treatment of a few of the things that I’ve done and seen, and why they lead me where I claim that I’m going.
My latest piece of Apple hardware. It will run SimAnt and some versions of Microsoft Word that came out in the 90s.
I too often start from the abstract, so here I will start with examples. I don’t own any device that runs iOS, or any Macintosh hardware save the old G3 I’m finally about to throw out. I have to push myself to use Twitter – my Twitter feed is honestly pretty useless to me, as it’s full of exactly the sort of vaguely technical easy reading that I’m not supped to let distract me from work and find mostly uninspiring anyway. I love Facebook, but I think it reached my own personal usability peak around 2009 – when they turned all the interests and likes and stuff into brand logos, I felt they had just added their first major antifeature, which might have been justified if it gave them enough revenue. I still update my LiveJournal. I like the long text format and friends-lock capability, which encourage deep, original, personal writing.
Remember when SimCity 2000 came out and was all 3D and modern-looking? These days I have no idea.
I would have trouble starting anything like Twitter, or Tweetdeck, or Angry Birds, Groupon, etc. The ideas would never occur to me, because I don’t use software that way, or for those things. I don’t know if I will ever use an iPhone. The aesthetic is not mine. I cannot deny, though, that this is where the tech industry is headed.
In other words, I am a weirdo. My ideas are weird. SiftFu is weird. This can be a good thing – SiftFu’s video “launch” received some amazingly positive feedback, and I believe that it tapped into a sentiment that is just below the surface of common understanding. It can be a bad thing – some people never understand what I’m working on, because it only makes sense if you can relate to this quirky notion of “relevance” that I am slowly trying to invent. Weird work is hard. Sometimes I wonder if I should have built something more typical. The only problem is that being weird, I don’t find that stuff necessarily any easier. The hard things are easier for me, and the easy things too often too hard.
I prefer the quantum version of this thing. Not that the quantum Hamiltonian is necessarily any easier to solve, but I find it more emotionally satisfying. Note: all images so far are public domain.
It’s not a loss, though, as long as I learn to use this as a comparative advantage. I saw the same pattern in physics. Classical mechanics in freshman year was the most difficult transition. About halfway through electrodynamics, things were starting to make sense. Quantum was not only extraordinarily exciting, it felt good. Quantum is weird. That’s why I love it. Then I skipped some prerequisites and jumped straight into field theory and lattice quantum chromodynamics. I want to one day lead weird projects. Quantum computing. Biomaterials. 4th and 5th phases of matter. Kinks in space and time.
Anything worth leading should be worth following. I will try again with SiftFu this spring, despite the unromantic and banal nature of the next tasks. I don’t have proof that it will work in the market, but I have signs. That’s enough for the level of risk I’m about to accept. After that, the industry might not be headed where I want to be. That’s okay. I will do great work in academia, and as I become ready, I will bring the awesomeness of weird work to the rest of the world.

Swarthmore Amphitheatre. From http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/File:Swarthmore_Amphitheatre_Spring2.jpg. Released under CC-BY-SA by Runneryoshi105. This is a great place to do weird work.
If you’ve read closely, you’ve probably noticed a loose end. Maybe more than one. I have an RSS feed somewhere on this blog if you’re interested in the next chapters.